top of page

A "Knot" in the Rope

Updated: Jan 21, 2019


Oh, the knot can feel so tight. The knot is the struggle, intense fears, anxiety, and angst I feel when I think of my son's future.

All mothers have fears and anxieties about their child's future. What will become of their child? What path will their child take? I have come to the realization that OUR path is going to veer off in a slightly different direction. I have intense fears and anxieties about my son's future. Will he ever drive? Hold down a job? Get married? What if something happens to me? What will that mean for him? People have asked me..."Have you ever pondered the thought of putting your son in a facility?" My reply...""Have you ever pondered the thought of putting YOUR child in a a facility?" NO WAY! I have to push forward...stay focused on the task at hand. My job is to help Nolan the best he can be! I pledge to do everything humanly possible to help my son become a functioning member of society. He inspires me to be a better mom each and everyday.

Yes, there are several occasions where that "knot" feels so tight! Then I remember...I can't release the knot by pulling harder!

That is when I turn to my family and friends for that much needed support. It helps extinguish some of those fearful thoughts.

Sometimes I feel strong...fierce! Other times I feel broken.

Being able to put the pieces back together is what makes us autism moms so strong! I will continue to work on releasing the "knot" with the help of friends, family, and other autism moms for guidance and support.

171 views0 comments

Recent Posts

See All
bottom of page